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        What do you do when knowing that your husband faces possibly losing his job? What do you do when you know that if he does, that you will have to move back home? What do you do, knowing full well that you want SO bad to move back home; especially being 7 months pregnant and missing back home and your family; so much so that the whole time living where you are now, all you have prayed for is to go back home?        Sadly, I am faced with this. Since moving here, I have never fully adjusted. For the past 8 months, all I have wanted was to move back home. Especially being pregnant. If we have to move back home, I will have SO much more support. I will have my family and his. Our son will be able to be raised around his family. I won't feel so alone. I'll be back where I have always wanted to be..with the crazy weather and the beautiful green grass and lakes to swim in in the hot summer and the corn growing all around and the cows mooing and the open backyard for our son to

I remember that morning like it was yesterday. About 21 or so weeks ago, I remember feeling really terrible. (I am 26 weeks pregnant now) My nausea was so bad, I was so dizzy, and weak beyond belief (some days I literally wouldn't have the strength to sit up and get out of bed)  The only thing that I could think of was that I was pregnant. I kept telling myself "no way...you will be fine. It's probably something else. It's too early for you to be pregnant." As I peed on the little stick and sat in the bathroom for a dreaded two to three minutes, I paced the bathroom floor, I glanced at the stick over and over on the sink, I took deep breaths, and I kneaded my hands anxiously. My heart began to race as the first pink line appeared. I just kept thinking to myself "it's okay. One line doesn't mean anything."It wasn't long before another blurry, but definitely there pink line appeared on the screen. I didn't know what to think. I didn'

BABY NAMES: Girl: Kelly Sue Payne Boy: Dominik (belonging to the Lord) Adam Michael Payne Michael Adam Andrew (strong man) Asher(happiness) Michael Asher Payne Christian (follower of Christ) Christian Michael Payne David (well- beloved, dear) Jesse (gift) Jonathan (given of God) David Allen Payne Malachi (my angel) If we have a little girl, we will be all set. If we have a little boy....oh man are we in trouble. I have NO clue for any good names :-( HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have had so many people in my life ask me what I want to be ; I of course, wanted to be a lot of things; a chef, a pastry chef, a dancer, a CNA, an artist, a writer, an elephant caretaker, etc etc. Of course, as time went on, and after I graduated and time got closer to college and having to figure out what I wanted to go into, I could never answer anyone. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life. I didn't know what I wanted to be. I knew absolutely nothing about where I was going in life or what God had in store for me. For most of the time as I was growing up in high school, I watched my sisters and other people's kids. I knew how important it was to people to have a cheap, or free, babysitter in this sad economy. I liked watching kids. I liked being able to watch them grow up and get soooooo big. :-)  As the years passed and passed and I prayed and prayed, a light shone down on me. I finally understood what I wanted to be in life. Looking at my sisters grow