Measure your worth
After being off of here for a few days for a little time well spent with my son and our family, I have done a lot of thinking about what the scale does to us and our self- worth/ self- esteem. Over the past few months, I have consistently lost and gained weight, but have lost 5 inches in my waist. Now, my size 18 pants are quite big on me, and i feel good in my skin...somewhat(besides pants that are too big on me... lol. )Sometimes, the weight on the scale really doesn't matter. I workout and eat right 80% of the time, and my body feels good!!!!! My body feels better than it EVER did when I was starving myself and putting my body through so much torture, trying to be society's version of perfect. For the first time in my life, i don't feel ugly and fat 24/7, 365 days a year. A few months ago, I relapsed into the mindset of restricting my calories and working out for hours at a time, just to lose nothing. I felt worthless and ugly and fatter than ever. Becoming a mama to